Edgy Whining incoming.
I hate breaking in public places. I don't know why but something just broke me enough to cry on the train despite my best efforts to fight it. I don't even know why, I think it's frustration but I was just feeling such a lack of anything. Then you have to try and fight it so people don't start to stare at you and even remotely gaining eye-contact just makes you relapse and it starts all over again. I just accepted the fact people were going to stare at me and I just had to deal with it. There was nothing I could do, I couldn't for the life of me make it stop so I just... cried... the whole way to class, without even really knowing why.
I'm just so tired, I just have the energy to survive my days and that's about it. I can't do anything right now. I just eat sleep wake up, German, bed. German is plauging myself to the point that I really do question my intelligence as a person. If I don't pass it's all on me and there would be no way around it, it would be my fault. These classes are exhausting especially with my heart and I keep getting progressively more tired. I don't have the energy to talk to people, or enjoy my hobbies or even play a god damn game. The only thing I "want" is to sleep. Which I know isn't good.
I drew this a while after. It was just such an ordeal I felt the need to try and "explain" this one.
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